I have spent most of my life feeling that I was born in the wrong time and wrong place, yearning as it were for the life I felt I should have had as opposed to the one I was in. It has taken me until quite recently to understand this and to let it go, to stop yearning for the life I imagined should have been mine.
As a child I also hated school and spent a lot of my time yearning to be ‘grown up’ so I didn’t need to be at school anymore. At home as a child I’d yearn to be somewhere else, on holiday, usually somewhere I deemed to be ‘boring’, I yearned to be home or on holiday in a different place with different people.
As an adult, in my career I’d yearn for promotion, a different job, more money, less stress and so on and so forth.
Now in so many ways I’ve learnt to let go of the yearning to some extent. I’ve learnt that if something is right for me, if it is within my path and for my good then it will happen. Yearning will not make this so.
I think this is why I never try to manifest anything, for to me that always feels like yearning, which in turn feels like being dissatisfied with what I have. This to me is the opposite to being grateful or showing gratitude. For me now it is more important to try and remember to appreciate what I have and enjoy it in the moment rather than yearn for what isn’t there.