I have always believed I was protected, that those who guide me also watched over me and made sure I was completely safe. This I trusted in implicitly.
This feeling of being protected and being able to trust that I am looked after, is something that I am finding hard to hold onto at the moment. Although in one way I still hope I can trust that I am safe and protected on a personal level, I am learning that in others I am as vulnerable as the next person.
Whilst on holiday earlier in the year, an employee of the place we were staying in broke into our locked room and stole money from us. This person was caught and is awaiting trial, we though are still awaiting the return of our money and have been told it could take as long as four years. For the rest of that holiday we made sure that everything was locked away or in the safe and that cases were kept locked. I am sure our next holiday will be no different.
Then the other night we had one of our sheds broken into and several items stolen. Again I am left feeling vulnerable, unable at the moment to trust in the protection I once took for granted. I am feeling certain that at the moment it doesn’t extend to my belongings anyway.
I recognise that this could all have been so much worse, that it is only money, that the things in the shed were of no great value and if we choose to, they can be replaced. For that I am extremely grateful. I have never valued material belongings anyway so that isn’t the issue, it is more that the trust that I had feels completely broken and I’m not sure how easily it can be restored.
I am sure somewhere here there is a message and maybe in time I will see it clearly. The only messages I can see at present though are that I can no longer trust those who watch over me implicitly, that I need stronger locks, need to be more vigilant and that I need to strengthen the protection, energetic and otherwise, around myself, family and home.
Just in case these aren’t the messages the universe wants me to receive, if anyone reading this has any ideas I’d be happy to hear them before the universe sends me the message for a third time, after all there are no coincidences and twice this year is twice too many.